The proof in writing

nameless_one @ 2005-08-23T00:33:00

2005-08-23T05:34:02Z

After playing around in the metalshop today, I have decided to name my Gladus, Longinus...

Lets see it anyone can guess why, or what the reference is....

nameless_one @ 2005-05-05T00:20:00

2005-05-05T05:20:34Z

There was a young man, a bit tired of his hand; who wanted to get some action.
Living at home, in the basement alone, with looks that did not get much attraction.
So he went to the mall, feeling ten feet tall, with an ego to make up for his size.
A bit bored with the sites, he sat down for a bite and gazed like a jackal out the window
and by said window did pass, a sweet piece of ass, that drove his body to rise
Aroused like a dream, sweat covering him like cream he ran to meet this young hotty
She whispered a name, quickly gone as it came, for he could not stop staring at her body.
Thinking style and aplomb his turned on hia charm, made with his best Don Juan.
She listened with a smirk, then slugged the dumb jerk, right in his unmentionable.
She told him take a hike, and said she was a dike, leaving him there on the lawn.
So alone yet again, with an ice pack on hand, he regretted getting up from his table.
What more could a boy need, but some lube and a screen,
To take the place of any woman, all he needed was dreams.

I wrote that a few years back.....is it bad that it still makes me chuckle?

nameless_one @ 2005-05-05T00:10:00

2005-05-05T05:14:17Z

Untitled

Rose petals wilt as a chill sets in
A wintry night descends to meet me
A dream to be dashed upon the shores of indifference
Cold ice forms on the tip of an outstretched hand,
No solace can be found as the arctic has claimed their hearts.
A hand pointing forward, guiding the way,
Leading a non existent exodus into the future,
It all falls into a cesspool of apathy
The truth is honest, as stagnant as water.
Flies twirl over the lost corpse of desire,
The end was ordained before it began,
The future was written by the mistakes of the past,
An Armageddon of belief,
An end to the faith
To comfort and console,
Never to guide or lead
As the sheep run to their shelter,
The butchers wave their cane,
Those left to the cold, gaze with saddened eyes
They see underneath: those hidden knives.
Sacrificed to the altar, believe in your fate,
Paradise awaits you; do not pursue it on life,
I must lead by example and illuminate the path,
We are destined to be forgotten our lights extinguished in mind
The path can be shown, not followed, but lit
The future waits, as does each road to it,
Let the sheep see the light, let them follow their whim,
And let their mind be their own not guided by fate,
The spiral never moves, you only slide upon the plane
Let us slide to our wills, and fly forward to the light,
Let us be free of ourselves and escape this cold night.

I've been stumbling through some old files looking for a paper to turn in for my creative writing class
(don't get me started, the thought of someone actually being able to get a degree in that makes me want to curl up and die)
IT occured to me that my writing needs honing, as I read these old texts I realize.....I suck.

I would ask a boon of any reader, give me a subject, any subject or theme or notion and leave it in a comment, In return, I'll produce a story out of it, no matter how far fetched or zany it is. I need the practice and would be very much obliged.
Danke.
-e.

nameless_one @ 2005-04-09T22:31:00

2005-04-10T03:32:57Z

My eyeballs and ears are bleeding and my body reeks of a chemical compound that does not burn...it explodes.

Don't stand behind a top fuel drag racer when he blips his engine...

nameless_one @ 2005-04-05T20:45:00

2005-04-06T01:46:12Z

That's one way of looking at it.

Another would be to say that a government that can be bent in that way has no right to govern.

Ask yourself this. Why does a hunger strike work?

nameless_one @ 2005-04-05T16:03:00

2005-04-05T21:08:45Z

I don't coddle hunger strikes, or tantrums of any sort...and I think no governemnt should. Coddle hunger strikes I mean, or people who chain themselves to fences or lie down in front of vehicles. Grown up tantrums.

...Threats of suicide are just another tantrum to me, another blackmail to which I will not submit. Besides if a person wants to take his own life, it is (I think) his privilege. Also, if he is dead serious about it, no one can stop him.
(Yes, I am a cruel and heartless scondrel. Stipulated. Now go play with your dolly somewhere else.)

--Maureen Johnson.
"To Sail Beyond the Sunset"

nameless_one @ 2005-04-05T08:23:00

2005-04-05T13:25:24Z

Tragic lullabies,
put baby to sleep with dreams
don't wake up small one.

nameless_one @ 2005-04-01T00:26:00

2005-04-01T06:29:26Z

I have several people to write to....and damnit I'm having a hard time making the words come.
I think it is the small pleasures that have given me such a hiatus of climatic activity.
I am contnet to go about my day, adding numerous throughts and observations to my journals, attending classes and
spending time with Bob...
Its all I need, time for observation.
time for affection
and time just to be me....

allright, I'm through being pointless.

nameless_one @ 2005-03-10T07:01:00

2005-03-10T13:04:05Z

By the by.

While I'm distracting my mind.

Anyone who gets an odd facebook invite would be kind to know that I am not to keen on using my real name online.

But Eron Deleon is a good friend of mine, he lives in my skull and babysits for my brain when I'm away. Thats all. "ntck ntck"

nameless_one @ 2005-03-10T06:43:00

2005-03-10T12:54:21Z

Some black guy rang my doorbell a few minutes ago
He was pretty clean shaven witha black jacket round head and a gold tooth.

He said he lived two doors down (or a few his accent was thick)and needed change for a twenty, and the stores weren't open and his wife needed to go to work.

He's got two problems.

1) no black people live on my street.
2) who the fuck knocks on a neighbor's door they don't know to ask for change.

There was a car waiting for him.

2 houses in my neighborhood have been burglarized by a black guy who gained entry through was seemed legitimate reasons.

I swear to anything held sacred, I am not about to let my house be the third.
Anyone have any suggestions? comfort? reassurance?
Police have been called, dispatch will be sent over the course of the day.
Why do I feel not the slightest reassured.
Not going to class today. Suppose that already makes me a victim. Maybe I'm paranoid, but I'm not about to find out!

nameless_one @ 2005-03-08T21:09:00

2005-03-09T03:09:41Z

nameless_one @ 2005-03-06T16:19:00

2005-03-06T22:20:03Z

Old loves they die hard,

Old lies, they die harder.

nameless_one @ 2005-02-26T12:57:00

2005-02-26T18:58:43Z

From Hell's heart, I stab at thee!!

With my last breath I spit on thee!

-Captain Ahab.
Herman Melville's Moby Dick

nameless_one @ 2005-02-09T21:04:00

2005-02-10T03:46:05Z

so I'm a little pissed, and a little frustrated.

Not really at anyone in particular, but I just realize now that I've been giving away too many free lunches, and not letting the rule of Tanstaafl take care of my bussiness practices...I need to fix that.

nameless_one @ 2005-02-02T19:21:00

2005-02-03T01:22:12Z

darling you're a very attractive girl...but the way you dress, you make mother teresa look like a hooker.

I have never read something that echoed my feelings more precisely.

2005-01-25T01:05:02Z

"The basis of all morality is duty, a concept with the same relation to group that self-interest has to individual. Nobody preached duty to these kids (Juvenile delinquents) in a way they could understand- that is, with a spanking. But the society (modern) they were in told them endlessly about their 'rights.'"
"The results should have been predictable, since a human being has no natural rights of any nature. "

...Somebody took the bait. "Sir? How about 'life liberty and the pursuit of happiness'?"

"Ah, yes the 'unalienable rights.' Each year someone quotes that magnificent poetry. Life? What 'right' to life has a man who is drowning in the pacific? The ocean will not hearken to his cries. What ‘right’ to life has a man who must due if his is to save his children? If he chooses to save his own life does he do so as a matter of ‘right’? If two men are starving and cannibalism is the only alternative to death, which man’s right is ‘unalienable’? And is it ‘right’? As to liberty, the heroes who signed the great document pledged themselves to buy liberty with their lives. Liberty is never unalienable; it must be redeemed regularly with the blood of patriots or it always vanishes. Of all the so-called natural human rights that have ever been invented, liberty is the least likely to be cheap and is never free of cost.”

“The third ’right’-the pursuit of happiness’? It is indeed unalienable but is not a right; it is simply a universal condition, which tyrants cannot take away nor patriots restore…. I can ‘pursue happiness as long as my brain lives- but neither gods nor saints, wise men nor subtle drugs, can unsure that I will catch it.”

--Jean V. Dubois
Lt. -Col., M.I. rtd

Robert A. Heinlien
"Starship Troopers"

nameless_one @ 2005-01-23T11:58:00

2005-01-23T18:04:23Z

every so often, I feel it

I don't understand it,
the simplest things set it off, but once its there, it won't go away.
burning underneath the skin,
An agony in the pit of my stomach...aching.
Longing, wanting to reach out, but you're tied up.

I hate it, I hate it so much, but I can't control it.
It eats at me. like jealousy, but I don't know what to call it,

My body reels against my mind, and I cannot find any sort of comfort against it.

Like your blood is water in a boiling pot with the lid welded on.

I can't get the images out of my mind.

Is this weakness, or just something i ate...

then I notice it in everyone around me.
Impatience,
Frustration,
even mild violence.

what is it in the air..and why can't i understand?

Camly sighingt through a second skin

2005-01-12T19:47:19Z

I cry in candlelight
I need you here
The vivid visions come
Then disappear
I swear your spirit's here, it's inexplicable
I'll never understand but I won't question it all

Beyond the aqua blue
Time's standing still
Illuminating me
Like moonshadows will
I look at my reflection and see yours instead
This can't be real
I said

Tonight we'll light the sky
And run through the fields
Tune in my frequency
Swim lavender seas

Show me your beautiful flaws
And tell me how you got each scar
I'll never judge again
Just let me see your soul
Just let me touch you
Again

Your brilliance and beauty
Has left me reeling
In sunlight and shadows I believe
You have set me free
You've set me free

nameless_one @ 2004-12-15T02:08:00

2004-12-15T08:13:13Z

I'm ashamed of what I did for a klondike bar...

in other advice...

If a Babylonian Diety asks you if you are a god, say "Yes." If a musclebound Austrian biker asks you if you are Sarah Connor, say "No."

nameless_one @ 2004-11-13T23:30:00

2004-11-14T05:34:01Z

this is the problem with LJ: we all think we are so close, but in actuality we know nothing about each other. i want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. ask away. or ask something random. something not obvious. whatever.

then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you.

so being a bandwagon idiot as I often am when it comes to livejournal, I've decided to further draw into my fevered ego and ask this sincerely of everyone who so desires to post, I will answer anything, be as specific or vague as you want, I just want feedback, and maybe I'll be able to think of some questions for you too.

In the mean time, I'll be finishing my research proposal, cracking nuts, and pulling my own hair out, as I try to get this done...
many thanks,

e.

nameless_one @ 2004-11-09T23:32:00

2004-11-10T05:34:08Z

Um did anyone happen to record tonight's (11/9) episode of "Scrubs" with Julianna Margulies?????

If so, I would REALLY be interested in getting a copy of it.

It would mean a terrible lot to me and to a very adorable blonde whom I happen to adore.

Many thanks
-e.

nameless_one @ 2004-11-02T19:21:00

2004-11-03T01:24:21Z

"And so he adds it up in his head, 'smart, clean, totally decent human being, psshh of course, Gay!!"

nameless_one @ 2004-10-26T22:37:00

2004-10-27T03:41:47Z

Some days it just doesn't seem worth it to fight down the anger...

I don't need no arms around me...

No matter how much people tell you that being angry is more consuming, it is still the easier route...

And I don't need no drugs to calm me

It's not that the world is against you, quite the contrary, the world seems bent on making everything perfect so the best parts of you are reppressed by surroundings of serene benevolence...

I have seen the write on the wall.

It becomes true then, that the things that make you happy, do not make you happy, but you are merely content with the continuity of their continued pressence, and you won't ever admit to yourself that you're not happy, because that would mean a painful fall into the unknown...

I don't think I need anything at all...

And then it all boils up, and you simply let the self control go

and reap the whirlwind....

nameless_one @ 2004-10-23T18:06:00

2004-10-23T23:07:21Z

So...uhhh anybody know any good concerts coming this month or next, preferably before the 20th of november??

I'd be much obliged, and no, taking back sunday, kittie and willie nelson do not qualify as good shows.

nameless_one @ 2004-10-18T21:29:00

2004-10-19T02:30:21Z

what if someone tethered themselves to you out of love, and you were too careless to see that you were dragging them through the mud...

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