||[Jan. 23rd, 2005|11:58 am]
every so often, I feel it|
I don't understand it,
the simplest things set it off, but once its there, it won't go away.
burning underneath the skin,
An agony in the pit of my stomach...aching.
Longing, wanting to reach out, but you're tied up.
I hate it, I hate it so much, but I can't control it.
It eats at me. like jealousy, but I don't know what to call it,
My body reels against my mind, and I cannot find any sort of comfort against it.
Like your blood is water in a boiling pot with the lid welded on.
I can't get the images out of my mind.
Is this weakness, or just something i ate...
then I notice it in everyone around me.
even mild violence.
what is it in the air..and why can't i understand?